Need Some Thoughts

[alpha]

Got a call this morning.. doesn't look like she's going to make it to this weekend.  My trip down to visit may have turned into a trip to a funeral.. I'm waiting to hear more from my family down in NC, but it's not sounding promising.

I hate being stuck at fucking work worrying.. Two more fucking days and I get to see her.. I can't miss her, I just can't...

Take the time off. Your work should understand.

[Mike]

I agree take the rest of the week and get there ASAP

[b_beau_09]

Finally got things ironed out, I'm leaving tonight after work and driving down.  I'll get there around midnight or later but at least I'll be there. 

My sister is there because she lives 30minutes from them, and she told me that in the few moments my grandmother has been lucid, she's made sure to let her know that I love her and am on my way soon.

Thanks mark and mike  I'm getting there as soon as I can.

[Mike]

It's the right thing to do my brother. Forget work and all its problems at the end of the day you came into this world with nothing but, family! Family is number one over every thing else.

[b_beau_09]

So I am here at my sisters house in NC. A normal 6 hour and 45 minute drive was made in 5 hours flat.. I never went more than ten over..

I haven't been able to see my grandmother yet because she's 45minutes from here.. but my sister said she was stable when she left their house an hour ago. Im going over first thing in the morning.

Again. Thanks for helping me through this guys.

[CrackerTeg]

Like Mike said, family first. I guess you can call us your extended family because we've got your back bud. I know I call this mine.

[Mike]

If theres one thing you will always have hear it's an ear to listen and give you what advice we can.

[gargantula99]

Count me in on that Brian.

[slipkord]

It's the right thing to do my brother. Forget work and all its problems at the end of the day you came into this world with nothing but, family! Family is number one over every thing else.

Well said Mike.


Hope everything is going well this morning Brian.

[Tunergirl]

Just got on to check forums......

Sorry I didn't see this earlier but if you need to talk I am here. I just lost my grandmother in January and my ex-mother-in-law in March. I understand what you are going through. Glad you got your butt down there, you don't want that regret of not seeing her one last time over you the rest of your life. I didn't go to Ohio over Christmas and New Years and didn't talk to her since middle of December and I lost her on 6th of January. It hurts bud spend as much time with her as you can and get home safely......


"MOM"

[b_beau_09]

Just a quick update.  I left North Carolina Tuesday afternoon and got back around 7pm here in MD.  Grandmom is still kickin'.  She still hasn't eaten anything since before all of this started (a week ago) so it really is just a matter of time until her body shuts down.

The visit was nice.  I was able to talk with her when she woke up a few times, which were about 30 second bursts every so often.  But I told her I loved her and said my goodbyes to her.  Even though her body is shutting down, her mind is still as sharp as a tack.  She remembered everyone when she was awake. 

I was having a lot of trouble with the whole situation and had kind of shut down when I was first there.. I kept telling myself that I was trying to just stay strong for my dad and family, but I was just lying to myself.  I didn't know how to say goodbye to such a great woman.  Eventually, Rachel pretty much forced me to go visit her one last time on Monday morning, so I did, and sat down with my grandmother for the final time.  She was asleep the whole time, but I was talking to her, and telling her all of the reasons I loved her.  That's when I broke down, I left the house and my immediate family (mom and dad) followed me out.  Just stood there crying for awhile outside..

I know this makes me sound like a sappy guy, but I don't care.  My grandmother is sort of a role model for me.  She's where I get my full blood Italian roots, and she's always done everything she can to make sure her family is taken care of.  Not to mention she has that Italian fire in her that demands respect, even though she's 4 foot nothing. 

I definitely am going to miss her, but I'm so glad I got a chance to go down and see her one last time.

[alpha]

I know this makes me sound like a sappy guy, but I don't care. 

  There should be absolutely no reason anyone should judge you on your emotions.  If someone does, that person is immature and insensitive.

Death in the family is always hard, and it always affects people in different ways.

I'm happy to hear you were able to visit her while she is still alive.

[gargantula99]

You visited her and got a chance to say what you need to say.  That's what matters.

I have the utmost respect for you for having the courage to post all of this. 

[Mike]

Your not sappy your human my brother! I'm glad you made the trip, and said your peace. God bless your grandmother and the rest of your family.

[CrackerTeg]

Agreed. A real man breaks down when someone he cares about is about to move on. Anyone who disagrees is a bitch. Kudos to you for posting up how you were feeling Brian.